obscenebunny

yeah it was about time

2006-05-30T19:42:44Z

Well it was about time I got over Marks pathetic worthless lying ass. He didn't give me anywhere near what he promised me. Well he kept one promise, he promised he wouldn't be like any other man I was ever with. Well that was right he was worse. I finally ripped him open like the bitch boy he is and then he tried to tell me I was the one creating the drama and there was no way that I was right. Yeah that's why I have evidence to the contrary. But anyways I had to be a sweetie and rescue a friend from the drudgery of Salina and moved him in with me. It's all been absolutely gravy lately since I'm not stressed out about anything anymore. I've been a much more pleasant person to talk to and i'm no where near as depressed as I used to be. I've got a handle on my life that I haven't had in a while. I might not be the greatest of people but I am stronger for everything I have been through in the last 2 to 3 years. So what if you got a problem with it bring it up to me. I am not going to let myself stay in the shadows anymore. I'm going out into the great big world and well at least try to play grown up.

dun wanna go

2006-01-08T15:42:42Z

well it's been great it's been perfect but it's ending temporarily. Today I get on a bus and go back to Kansas (not that I want to). Mark says it's only going to take him a couple of months to get us a place of our own but that's still two months of nothing but phone calls and online. I've enjoyed everynight going to sleep with my head on his chest or curled up in his arms and don't want it to end. But since Mark has been living with Miko in Miko's rather small studio three people are way to much for such a tiny space so I have to go back. Tried to come up with some reason I couldn't leave today but nothing has come into my airheaded sexually sated mind. Marks regular computer chose to do some weird loop thing and shutdown permanently Friday. So yesterday we went and took it in since it's still under warranty and got a loaner stack, well guess what the loaner stack was almost as bad. Mark had to take it down to the basics and reload everything yeah he should get a couple of weeks free on his regular puter for doing that. But after we went and got the replacement stack Mark took me for a drive around the city so I could see all the scenery and so then I could see what the city looks like when you are driving in from the west OMG it's soooo damned gorgeous. I told him that I couldn't see us living anywhere else. And really I can't everytime I step outside the studio I look and just think wow this place is gorgeous I can't believe that it is so perfect here mountains everywhere you look and for being such a large city clean air. Hopefully 2 months will go by rather fast. But after the drive we went to a mall to get a charm for my collar that would be as if Mark was with me in some small way. OMG it was the most pretentious mall I have ever seen. But it did redeem itself by having a Hot Topic. We actually looked there and in spencers for a charm before we found a cell phone charm at claires (which by the way that mall has two of them WTF) that we could just switch jump rings around on and put it on my collar. So now I have this littel black rhinestone guitar on my collar. And it does remind me of Mark since it looks like his real guitar (well cept his isn't covered in rhinestones and this one doesn't have all the stickers on it). Friday night Mark rented my favorite ps2 game for me and last night I managed to get him hooked on it. And that is great cause I love playing amplitude. So tomorrow at this time I'll be in Kansas again. But I am going to keep reminding myself it's only for a couple of months and then I'll be back out here permanently (with my little dog too) *giggles* ok had to use that, kinda like Miko waited a whole week before making a Kansas joke. Anyways I think I am going to crawl back in bed with Mark and enjoy the last two hours or so laying in his arms.

Cough cough sneeze sniffle

2004-11-04T01:16:45Z

Well kiddos it's officially here cough and cold season and I started it with one hell of a whopper I got bronchittis for Halloween weekend. So yeah I went out Friday and Saturday night (the Groove) Had something close to a good time. So not used to guys hitting on me. Note the mini dress as my costume and dancing like a stripper Saturday night might have had something to do with the extra attention. No I didn't enter the contest that they had, but that's fine I was no where in league with the competition. We had one girl there who RENTED a costume from one of the casino's in Las Vegas and she didn't even make it past the first round. Hell my friend Brandon who looked just like Mr. Krueger didn't make it past the second round. It was some guy in a cheesy Frankenstein costume that won. So I was going to go to the Kitten on Sunday night knowing my odds of winning any contests where better there and I was too god damned sick to go out. Hell I haven't had more then like 3 smokes since Monday night. Worked Monday and yesterday, work again tomorrow. Not doing to bad since hardly anyone tips here in Salina it seems that makeing $15 in three hours isn't bad at all. Maybe once I get in on the weekend action it won't be anywhere near so bad with tips. But hey atleast I make minimum wage unlike waitressing at other restaurants. Less work more pay and I don't have to claim tips... in the words of Montogomry Gentry HELL YEAH. OK I know it's scary someone as dark and morbid as I am listens to country music but it's a hell of a lot better then that hip hop shit they are always playing out at the clubs (Well except when I sweet talk Scottie into playing Manson for me). I am a bit pissed off at Mark right now, turns out he got online Friday evening and didn't fucking bother to email me and here he was the only reason I dragged my ass out of bed (other then work) and walked a mile in the cold while I am busy hawking up major greenage. Eeeeewwwww. Soon I will be walking the mile home, popping some nyquil and cuddling in bed with my teddy bear. Yes I have a teddy bear that makes special appearances when I am either sick or sad so hush I don't deny it.

Ok So I am a quiz whore LOL...

2004-07-12T01:59:11Z

Don't start frowning because you never know who's
falling in love with your smile.

lighten up and live life like there was no
tommorrow because it looks like you live a
lonely life.

What quote should I give you?
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LOL Not so sure it's me but ok...

Your Karen! The hero of the story who defeats the
evil fairy Dreagol. You like to have friends
back you up when you get into hard situations
but your very brave and don't take any crap
from anyone. Go you!

Wut character from my story are you?
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not so sure that one suits me.

You're a Vampire. Vampires were the creatures of
the night that were believed to live off of
human blood. Count Dracula, being the most
famous vampire, set the stereotype. They had
dark hair and pale skin from being away from
the sunlight. If they actually existed, it's
very possible they had the skin disease that
made you allergic to the sun so whenever the
sunlight would hit it, it would hurt like
crazy. They were usually snobbish and control
freaks and kept werewolves as pets.(please
rate)

What Mystical Creature Are You? (Pictures)
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YES THIS IS DEFINATELY ME I DIDN'T LIE ON MY ANSWERS

Ok I am done quiz whoring for today... check it out tomorrow is going to be the sex quizes....

Yup this suits me.

2004-07-12T01:22:23Z

You're Element is Night. You're a loner who is very
creative but never show your work to anyone.
You may smile a little but sadness or
loneliness surround you and other can feel it
when they're near you. You have a dark or
unusual beauty that makes you mysterious and
you probably have a lot of secrets that you've
never told anyone. You're beauty is intriging
and unorthidox but the real thing that makes
you special is your eyes. Something in them
makes them like Diamonds in the Rough.

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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Oh yeah this is definately me.